random thoughts and hopeless rants

is possibly the most inspiring singer i’ve ever heard. she has a way to get me to sing and cry in one song.  i love her music and how each song has a story behind it.  her lyrics are so real and full (if that makes any sense at all). 

right now i’m listening to “someone like you” which is off of her new album. it’s so beautiful and i’m literally crying in my bed. here are the lyrics:

I heard that you’re settled down,
That you found a girl and you’re married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it,
I had hoped you’d see my face,
And that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over,

Never mind, I’ll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don’t forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
“Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,”
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it,
I had hoped you’d see my face,
And that you’d be reminded that for me it isn’t over,
 
Never mind, I’ll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don’t forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
“Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,”

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they’re memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don’t forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
“Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,”

Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don’t forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
“Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,”
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

i want to learn how to play the piano more than anything in the world.  i will learn. This summer. i want to be able to write songs like this that mean something to me.

This isn’t even related but i miss my family and my friends so much right now.  i haven’t been this homesick at all since i’ve been here at school… i just want to be in my house with my parents and megan and jake. i miss them so much. talking to marie today made all of this hit home.  the things we used to giggle about like 12 year olds are now being discusses over a chat box. i’m not sure why but that just made me so sad. 

2 weeks until i’m home.